when at peace

last night just before Sahur felt like the most complete day of Ramadhan this year for me.
the rain outside just helped the heart to open up a little bit more. seek a little more.


this morning just after Subuh felt like the most calm of mornings in a long while.
Alhamdulillah.


One more day left to fast. i'm already missing it.
Some eventful moments this Ramadhan personally and shared.
Some soul searching. Some eye-opening. Some reminding.
There's just something really special about the month.
InsyaAllah we'll see it again when it comes around next.
for now, continue to follow through the same spirit for the rest of the months.


Salam Aidilfitri. Eid Mubarak. Blessings to all. Be merry and safe wherever you may be.


DOT.

conflicted

salah sangka atau buruk sangka?

marah atau sayang?

atau marah itu sayang?

Dot.

*this is not a note to a lover. not from a lover. just a reminder of conflicts between two people born to love even when saying "i love you" isn't always the easiest thing to do.

Boy

happy birthday. you're an old boy. very old in fact. but you're still our own boy.


i really really really miss you.


i wish things were different.


i still have hope :)


for now, i'll keep the memories i have with you alive. I love you.


DOT.

celebrate the present

if i were you, yesterday i would have cried. maybe lived a little in the past. reminisce the good memories. forget about the bad.

i wonder if you still remember what yesterday meant to you years ago. i'm happy you looked happy yesterday although deep down i wouldn't know.

i'm happy i spent some time with you yesterday. i'm sorry if i wasn't much help to soothe whatever needs soothing.

i forgot what yesterday used to mean to you. i remembered today. i'll give you a hug when you come back from the gym later. i'll ask you how you're doing.

i love you momsie :)

for the memories, happy anniversary.

i promise i'll check up on popsicle too.

DOT.

knowing what to let out

there's only ever one real chance to prove your case. 1st impression is always the most crucial. then that is that.

Dot.